From the time we are little kids we always talk about someday being a grown up. Everyone always comments on how grown up we look after they haven't seen us for a while. There is also the belief that everything will be all together when we are grown up. All major questions answered and we are set in our routine and life. But then there is the question... When are we considered all grown up? Does age really make us grown up or is this just a wish we all have that really never comes to pass?
In high school we have this idea and desire to be grown up, where we rely on ourselves and no one else for the things we need. We feel like we are just about grown up when we are seniors and about to graduate because for some reason the idea of starting college makes us feel like we are just about there. But that is far from true.
I never realized what freshmen in college were like until I got the chance to teach them. I'm just hoping that I wasn't like the normal freshman. I always felt like I was pretty mature when I left high school, yet now when I see how the freshmen are behaving I just can't help feeling like I had a similar attitude. The are still so immature and naive. So when do we grown up? Cause most of them are now on their own and independent yet that obviously doesn't make them grown ups. Then I wonder, since I'm working on an MBA does that make me grown up? Ahhh, I have to say hardly.
Then I think, maybe I have to have a permanent job and maybe some kids and that will make me grown up. Then I reflect on some people who I know who have a steady job and also have kids and that thought goes out the window. Maybe I have to be retired and experience the world a little before I can be grown up. But that doesn't make sense either cause I swear some retired people act more crazy than teens.
So, is there really such thing as a grown up or do we all just continue to grow/decline? I have to say decline cause some people who I always thought were quite steady and knowledgeable just aren't so anymore. Maybe cause I have a different perspective than when I was younger but who knows. I know I'm not the same person I was in high school, or undergrad, or even when I started grad school. No matter how much I grow I'm pretty sure I will never be all grown up, I think everyone continues to grow and change depending on what their life brings them. I have no desire to be a grown up anymore but I am so happy I'm not a freshman anymore. It's hard to believe that I was ever like them.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Another strange dream
I'm not sure why I keep having the oddest dreams but this one takes the cake so far. It starts off rather normal where I am at the fair with the usual people (Carpenters and Jenny).
At first it's kinda normal and we're all just sitting around and occasionally throwing some hay or whatever to the cows. Then we all go for a walk and end up sitting by the rides. Thing is, there are no barriers to keep us from getting close to the rides. First I think we are by a carousel and that obviously doesn't move but then all of the sudden it's a ride like the spider and I keep almost getting hit. After we are there for a while we decide to go back and Carpenters start giving their cows hay. Next thing I know is Jenny is standing beside me with a huge blowtorch setting all the hay in the barn and outside it on fire. I think a thought like "this is how she cleans up" pops into my mind and I don't really think anything of it. Then I decide to leave but I first have to go back into the barn and tell them that I'm going. This become difficult when there are all the sudden animal gates in front of me. I start to climb them but they are the metal ones and I have no idea where they are grounded so they start falling over. I do believe a cow beside me gets excited and says something like "woohoo, we are going to get those goats now". Because the Carpenters cows are now goats of course. So the gates starts falling over and there appears to be 3 rows of them and they fall over like dominoes. For some reason the goats don't move and most of them get crushed by the falling gates. I quickly get out of there and say my goodbyes and then get in my car. Then for some reason I'm at home trying to drive away and there are 2 cars parked in front of me but for some reason I don't want to back up (either from the cows that got out or the raging fire that Jenny made), anyways I decide to charge through the 2 cars cause I think I can make it. Needless to say I don't and scratch my car to bits. The inside is fine and looks normal except that the steering wheel is now a limp square so I can barely drive in a straight line.
I then get into a cab driven by 2 odd people and they take me somewhere. I'm not sure where I'm going at this point. Somehow we end up going into the offices of Daniel Tosh from Tosh.0 and he is there acting goofy as ever but there seems to be an underlying feeling that he is a big jerk and has high demands. Everyone is trying to please him and they are falling all over themselves to do so. We end up walking around the office for a bit talking to people and then Daniel comes after us for some reason. I think something may have happened after that but I basically woke up at this point. There was a bunch of little things that also happened during this dream that were just too hard to describe without taking too long. This dream definitely is the most out there for this month.
At first it's kinda normal and we're all just sitting around and occasionally throwing some hay or whatever to the cows. Then we all go for a walk and end up sitting by the rides. Thing is, there are no barriers to keep us from getting close to the rides. First I think we are by a carousel and that obviously doesn't move but then all of the sudden it's a ride like the spider and I keep almost getting hit. After we are there for a while we decide to go back and Carpenters start giving their cows hay. Next thing I know is Jenny is standing beside me with a huge blowtorch setting all the hay in the barn and outside it on fire. I think a thought like "this is how she cleans up" pops into my mind and I don't really think anything of it. Then I decide to leave but I first have to go back into the barn and tell them that I'm going. This become difficult when there are all the sudden animal gates in front of me. I start to climb them but they are the metal ones and I have no idea where they are grounded so they start falling over. I do believe a cow beside me gets excited and says something like "woohoo, we are going to get those goats now". Because the Carpenters cows are now goats of course. So the gates starts falling over and there appears to be 3 rows of them and they fall over like dominoes. For some reason the goats don't move and most of them get crushed by the falling gates. I quickly get out of there and say my goodbyes and then get in my car. Then for some reason I'm at home trying to drive away and there are 2 cars parked in front of me but for some reason I don't want to back up (either from the cows that got out or the raging fire that Jenny made), anyways I decide to charge through the 2 cars cause I think I can make it. Needless to say I don't and scratch my car to bits. The inside is fine and looks normal except that the steering wheel is now a limp square so I can barely drive in a straight line.
I then get into a cab driven by 2 odd people and they take me somewhere. I'm not sure where I'm going at this point. Somehow we end up going into the offices of Daniel Tosh from Tosh.0 and he is there acting goofy as ever but there seems to be an underlying feeling that he is a big jerk and has high demands. Everyone is trying to please him and they are falling all over themselves to do so. We end up walking around the office for a bit talking to people and then Daniel comes after us for some reason. I think something may have happened after that but I basically woke up at this point. There was a bunch of little things that also happened during this dream that were just too hard to describe without taking too long. This dream definitely is the most out there for this month.
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